Sunday, May 8, 2011

Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.
Author - unknown

I received this poem from a friend for Mother's Day and as I read it I thought .... this is so true life looked so different before I was a mom.  It also made me think of way God keeps molding me as a mom.  The influences and events in life that have had a huge impact on me as a mom.  The day each of my kids were born and I held them for the first time has been a definite molding event.  Each one of them has been so different from the time they were born.  If only it was as easy as having one and having the rest figured out, definitely a learning curve as you go. Second is the influence of my best friend friend Leigh Ann and then losing her tragically.  So many things she taught me about being a mom and now a inspiration to me in the legacy I am leaving behind. And thirdly, traveling around the world to become a mom to our sweet Max.  God is good! Through all the ups and downs in life I see him continuing to mold me as a mom.

There are so many wonderful people that have been a huge influence in my life and my journey as a mom.  I am so thankful for my own mom and the example she has been for me.  She taught me so much about love and sacrifice.  Being a mom was her passion and her priority and it showed.  I am thankful for my mother in law who also gave of herself and who raised her son in Lord.  I am thankful of her influences in his life and that I get the benefits of her love and prayers in having a godly husband that leads our family.  I am thankful for so many wonderful moms who are on this journey of motherhood with me.  I have learned so much from so many and am grateful for the love, support and encouragement on this journey! 

Being a mom is my love, my passion.  I am so thankful for my four blessings that call me mom.  I am thankful for the joy they bring to me and way they stretch and grow me each and every day.  There is no other place I would rather be in the world than walking through life with my four little blessings.  There are days this mommy things is easy and everything is smooth sailing.  Then there are days that are hard and days that I often feel inadequate in meeting the demands and needs of my 4 little individuals who are all wired and need to be loved differently.  When I really think about the responsibility God has given me in being mom to these four blessings ... raising them in the Lord, molding them, building character in them, loving them, praying for them, playing with them, disciplining them, providing for them, teaching them, training them .... the list of responsibilities is endless and is often overwhelming.  I am so thankful I am not at this alone.  I am thankful for my supportive, godly partner, my husband. But most of all I am thankful that my heavenly Father daily provides what I need and provides what I lack for my kids.  I am thankful he has entrusted me with these four special little people and promises to walk with me on my journey of motherhood.  For many this day is a day is filled with joy but for others I know this is a day that represents pain and loss.  Today I pray for and think about those who desire to be a mom and those that have lost their mom or their children.  

Happy Mother's Day to all you wonderful moms out there.  May God bless you today and in the days to come.  

I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit  
Ephesians 3:16

More on our Mother's Day weekend to come! 


Kathy said...

I hope you had a WONDERFUL first Mother's day with Max! :) You are an amazing Mom, Julie. Your family is so lucky to have you!

This is a beautifully written post, I can commiserate with so much of it.

~ I hope to finish our conversation that was cut short SOON. I have some things to share with you that I've been thinking about.
Take care!

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